Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Baby Day!!
gulp. holy cow. That is less than a month away!!! I will be 38 weeks that day and my Dr. doesn't want me to carry it any longer because my risks are higher for complications because of the kind of C-section I had with Kanyon. SOOOOOOOO hopefully December 8 will be the day! I feel like I can't call it Birthday until it actually is born on that day, so until then, we await BABY DAY!!
Am I ready? Ummmmmmm define ready. Physically, I feel great. About a month ago I finally completely lost all nausea so I've actually felt better the last 4-6 weeks than I've felt the whole time. My belly is big, but I'm not uncomfortable. I'm still sleeping pretty good (excpet for when bit brother Kanyon decides to pull his wake up in the middle of the night stunts). If there ever was a "cute" phase of pregnancy for me, its FOR SURE over. Now I'm just big. But hey, that was my goal! I also just started to think about stretch marks. Never thought of that last time. Hope I don't get 'em.
To-Do list wise, I'm NOT ready. I have seriously done NOTHING to get ready for this baby. Some of that is that I've been busy, but some of that is me just not getting started on it yet. We don't have a ton to do since we aren't re-doing any rooms or anything. We will move klp into our guest room that is already cowboy themed. We won't do that until January probably because we'll have company til then and that is our only guest room. The baby will be in our room for a while so klp can still sleep in the nursery. We have 2 beds so one will go with klp and the other will stay for the baby. We will just put whatever bedding on the bed that we need when we see if its a boy or a girl! I basically just have to clean/de-junk/rearrange closets and that's it. Yeah, no biggie right?!!
Another thing I'm NOT ready for is the actual birth part. I'm very nervous about the C-section and the fact that (hopefully) I'll just walk in and then have a baby. The needles make me nervous, the surgery makes me nervous. I know I've done it before, but last time was more like a scene from a medical drama where everyone is going crazy so there was no time for nerves, I had to do what I had to do. That almost made it easier because I didn't think about anything.
I know people do it all the time, but STILL! I AM looking forward to only recovering from ONE type of delivery this time. That should be nice.
As my friend Stacey said are YOU ready? Meaning am I ready for this thing to be in my arms. YES! I don't know if its been the unique stress of this pregnancy, the busy-ness of the last couple of months, or the fact that we have a baby here with us and that keeps us so busy that we don't always stop to think about the new one, but in the last week I've started getting SOOO excited about it actually being here with us. My arms are just so ready to hold it. Our house is ready for a new addition and our ears are ready for new sounds (even if they're loud and screamy)! I'm very excited!
Is Kanyon ready? He has NO. CLUE.
Do we have names ready? NO! If its a girl, we think we could decide pretty quickly. We have 2 we both really like we just have to make the final call. If its a boy, there will be a stand off in the hospital. We CAN NOT agree. We both have names we really like they just aren't the same ones. So, I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
I have taken my last FFN and had our last ultrasound. I'm 34 weeks today! I have 3 more shots left to take and then I will be a normal patient! We are so very thankful for every single day. I remember when I got pregnant saying, "If we can just make it to November!" And here we are 10 days into it and still going strong! As we shift our thoughts to BABY DAY we are praying for a (medically speaking) dull, routine, boring day. Of course for us the day will be anything but routine as we will be meeting our next little one to love.
DECEMBER 8 HERE WE COME!!!!!!!
Friday, November 6, 2009
catching up in PICTURES
Rach sent me her Yamboree pics and this one was too cute not to post. Avery and Roselyn like to try to feel my baby move. Sweet girls.
Ummmm so, maybe I let klp get a little sun burnt at the Yamboree. We were in a great spot for the parade, so I wasn't worried. BUT the corny dog line was another story. We waited forever and no matter how I tried to shade him, that one side was always in the sun. He was fine though, and he and Landry enjoyed a nice ride on Paw Paw's belly.
Cool dude in his Halloween pj's
He reached for Eric's glasses and wanted to put them on. He was one cool mummy.
Our small group's trunk was Camping theme. We set up tents and stuff and then the guys roasted marshmallows so we could hand out s'mores. Yummy! It was really fun!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
This is WAY TOO LONG and there isn't even a picture
If you don't want to read about feeding, then click on over to the next blog.
The biggest thing is just our new routine here at home with feeding. It has been WAAAAAAAY harder than I expected getting back and implementing everything here at home. It is a LOT of work. It occured to me about half way through feeding camp when Kory said, "Do you feel like your life is about to get way harder?" I knew the answer was YES, but I had no idea. Part of the initial adjustment was simply getting the food made. He eats all pureed foods, but not baby food. So, real food, just blended in the Magic Bullet. Yes, its nasty. They sent me home with a packet of "recipes" but most are canned and kinda processed. I would like to be a little healthier and have more fresh food, so I'm finding the balance with that. The first 2 weeks home I felt like I literally LIVED in my kitchen I was either cooking, steaming, chopping, blending, or dividing portions to store. I was just waiting for my Magic Bullet to burn out on me, but she's still a churnin'! I feel like this part has gotten more manageable. I've figured out the portions better so I'm not wasting as much and I'm able to use some of our meals to blend as well as just getting faster at getting it ready and multi-tasking at the stove! It is sometimes hard to think of stuff to feed him (I find that to be the hardest part of cooking for anyone....THINKING OF WHAT TO DO!) but I'm getting better and this part is getting easier. I have some things in my freezer and I've found some store bought things that are easy to blend and don't require my cooking them.
All meals are supposed to have 2 foods offered and water in his sippy cup. I feed him breakfast which can be yogurt and fruit or stuff like biscuits, pancakes, waffles, or blended oatmeal usually I give him fruit with any breakfast. He hates breakfast no matter what I serve. Lunch is a food food and then some sort of veggie or fruit again. Snack is the only one food thing and it can be pudding, or anything else that is snacky. Supper is food food again like lunch. We still do 2 bottles a day on top of the food. One after lunch and one at bed time. It is amazing how easy the bottle seems now. There are so many times that I'd rather just forget the feeding food and give him a bottle because its so much easier. Who would've ever though that!!!?? Mornings are the WORST, he's just not interested at all. He never has been a morning eater. Those were always his worst bottles and really, in general, the kid is not a morning person.
By the time we left feeding camp, Kory and I had both been trained on the protocol and how to follow it for his feeding times. Its pretty specific and made to be the same thing every time...same words, same reinforcement/rewards, same expectations every time. We have to set a timer each time so each meal lasts 25 minutes. The basic idea of the philosophy is to reward good behavior with good things. Those good things can be toys that he likes to play with or anything that is fun to him (turning off lights, opening the window, etc.) but if he doesn't eat, he can't have those things. That is a very basic explanation and there is a lot more to it than that, but I already write too much, so I'd better not go into any more detail. If you wanna know more, I"ll tell ya more, just ask.
Along with the actual feeding comes the nutrition part. We are still followed by our nutritionist there so we have to weigh every gram that he eats and every milliliter that he drinks. I have to record this and send it to her every week for her to make sure his intake is good. We also have stuff that we measure out and add to his food to boost the calories...ya know, more bang for your buck! This is rather annoying as it only ADDS to the time it takes to prepare, heat, weigh, serve, re-weigh, and clean up, but I'm glad we do this so we can make sure he's getting what he needs. I don't think we'll have to do this long term, but for the time being we will have to keep it up. I'm glad to have them keeping up with this! I don't have to worry "Is he getting enough".
So, how's he doing with his eating???? That has been the big question I get. Ummmmmm I'd say he's doing OK. While we were there, he was a total ROCK STAR! He went the whole time with little to no resistance to anything they did. So, I was only really worried about coming home and MY part of getting the food made, the schedule, what we would do if I had to feed him somewhere besides home (we do have to carry on normal life at some point)....etc. I expected klp to continue on the same path he was on there at the clinic. I'd say he did that the first week and then we started a little downward slide. Its not like he's NOT eating ANYTHING, but he's refusing it way more and I'm finding it harder and harder to motivate him to want to take his bites. I've talked to his therapists and they said its pretty normal for kids to honeymoon and then decide to test the new place (home) or just take time to readjust to eating somewhere besides at the clinic. There, the setting is ideal. Tiny room, no distractions, all kinds of toys and reinforcements at your fingertips, etc. Home is good, but not THAT good! SOOOOOOO this has been quite a source of frustration to me. I feel like I'm feeding him every time I turn around and I'm back to getting a sick pit every time I think about feeding him. I dread every single meal every single day. It brings back feelings like when his bottle feeding was so bad. BUT this is not NEAR as bad, I just can't let myself get frustrated. Feeding is THE most frustrating thing, but I really do have to remind myself that we are in such a better place than we were a year ago. And the whole taking it one day at a time trick. It seems to fix everything, but its so HARD TO DO! I am hoping and praying that he will settle back into eating easier and it will be a less tense time in our house. The good thing is that he's done pretty well when we have to be on the go. If we're at a restaurant or someone else's house or whatever, he's managed to still eat. We don't follow the strict routine, but we are able to have a successful meal. I am really happy with that because I was worried about that when we came home. I mean its almost impossible to be AT home for EVERY single feeding every single day.
Though all things eating seem to consume my day, we're also trying to get back in the swing of things with his therapy and other things that are a part of our days and weeks. I'm feeling like I can't get it all done in a day as far as his scheduled therapy and the things I need to do with him at home. BUT we're getting back in the swing of things and each day and each week will get easier. It makes doing ANYTHING else, especially outside our house really difficult (not just fun stuff, but just ANYTHING like grocery store, post office....) but we're getting better. He's started back up at Windridge with his Hippo therapy and is loving it. We are getting a new OT all set up to come to the house, so that will start next week. I try not to think about WHEN and HOW I'll fit another 2 hours of therapy into our week. PT is still coming to the house in addition to hippo therapy and we are working more and more on standing, kneeling, taking steps, climbing, etc.
AND while I'm being Debbie Downer I'll add this. Another huge frustration coming home was his sleeping. He was waking up EVERY SINGLE night. Sometimes twice, sometimes for 2 hours at a time. Most of his naps were interrupted too! Most of it I think had to do with his tummy. We have a hard time keeping all of his G.I. issues balanced out. I didn't know what to do! His tummy hurt, so I felt like leaving him to cry was wrong. BUT we've had more and more full nights of sleep, so I think we're back on track there.
AND we're not only learning about life with a kid who eats food (even if it is blended) we are learning about life with a kid who has an opinion. We're seeing more and more "fits" when things aren't just right. He's finally figured out what he wants, but gets frustrated when he can't communicate it to us or physically do it himself. We are trying to find the happy medium with him and helping him communicate (which is tricky with his development, etc.) but also teaching him that things aren't gonna always go his way. So on the one hand, we're just like any other parent of a 2 year old. But on the other hand, we have a few more question marks when it comes to this sort of thing. We are confident that he can understand A LOT so we know he is capable of learning how to communicate and how to handle his anger/frustrations. Let the parenting begin. How can I complain, we've had the most laid back easy going kid for 2 1/2 years. He's still pretty darn good if I do say so myself. I figure its time he start giving me a run for my money. I just kinda think it was interesting timing with all the other stress going on!! :)
I've been home 2 1/2 weeks and I'm SOOOOO glad to be here. Each day is a day closer to finding our little groove. Kory has been SOOO helpful in keeping me from going totally crazy. Its been a long while since I've been pushed and stretched and STRESSED this much. I keep reminding myself that it will not last forever, it is just a season and it WILL get better. Not to mention, I've been in such worse places that some days I just tell myself to suck it up and get a better attitude! :)
Now that you've read this you will know why i have done NOTHING for the arrival of this baby I'm carrying. Nothing. We'll get to it eventually. Baby is great. 33 weeks today!
I will not post another word because this was crazy talk. and TOO MUCH OF IT!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Spitting like Daddy
The Phillips Phamily has never claimed to have the best manners, so you may or may not be surprised to see this video. I posted a video quite a while back of Kory spitting and Kanyon laughing SOOOOO hard. It has continued to be a source of side splitting laughter for Kanyon so of course, we keep doing it. (plus, sometimes we REALLY need him to smile at the camera!) This video was taken the very first evening we were home from Eating Camp and KLP and klp were doing their spitting/laughing thing. Then we realized after KLP would spit, klp would try to do it too!! So I ran and grabbed my camera. Again, a little trick he taught himself. Are you seeing a pattern here, almost all of the "tricks" he's mastered are ones he's taught himself. Who needs mommy, right? I missed the best spits, but managed to get one before my memory card filled up. If it happens again, hopefully I can get a better video. Enjoy! p.s. Halloween is Saturday and we STILL don't know what Kanyon is going to be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Yamboree!
We've been home for a little over a week now and I just can't get my feet on the ground. I am SLIGHTLY (by slightly I mean MAJORLY) overwhelmed as we try to settle into things. It doesn't help that klp has YET to sleep through the night (well, the first night he did....for 12 hours!) and we can't figure out why. BUT all of that is another post for another day. For now I will share pics of our great weekend in Gilmer for the Yamboree.
I managed to remember to dump my camera so my memory card would be empty and ready for pics, but didn't notice my battery was dead til we got there. So these are all Mo's pics and maybe Rachel will send me hers later.
Landry and Nolan waiting with great anticipation for the parade to begin!
Here we are with our crew (klp, landry, nolan, avery, roselyn) and Norah and Caden too!
I will just say that klp LOVES his cousins. Its so fun to watch him. He gets so excited...he squeals and laughs so much! Here he is laughing at Avery.
Almost the whole group......
Ahhhh NOLAN!!!! YEAH! And you can see Avery decide that she wants to hold HER baby sister since Ro is holding Nolan.
These two are particularly big buddies right now. Landry is SOOO sweet. Wherever Kanyon goes, she goes. She loves to rub his head and follow him everywhere. Here she is about to get a kiss from klp.
Mom with all her little chicks.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Eating Camp- THE END
NO MORE BRACELETS! I had to wear the orange one, he had to wear his ID one. NO MORE!
The last night we were there, the only way we could keep this boy occupied and happy was to take a bath. He had LOTS of fun splashing. So much fun that my mom had to hide behind the shower curtain to keep from getting soaked.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Eating Camp Day 23 1/2
The last 3 nights he has slept ALL NIGHT and I've had to wake him up in the morning to get him ready. I guess he's finally settling in to sleeping here. Nice timing.
One thing that has kept him happy (which has been pretty hard these days, especially since its been rainy and he hasn't been able to walk outside with mom) are these stickers. Our awesome friend Holly (mommy of Kan's lady Addison) sent these window gel sticker things to decorate your window to look like a pumpkin. klp doesn't take too much interest in making it look like a pumpkin, but he LOVES sticking these on the window.

THE BIG 3-0!!!!!! We made it to our BIG goal of 30 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to the Dr. here yesterday and everything looked great. Baby measured perfect and healthy and about 3 1/2lbs! My cervix got an A+ again, its is perfect!! All these things show that we should make it to our next BIG goal of 32 weeks. So very very very thankful. And large as you will see in the pic below!

I am carrying this baby much like I did the twins. High and pointy! :) My belly button is now flat and I think I'm about the size I was when I delivered Kanyon and Jayde, but I'm anxious to look at my chart when I go back to my Dr.

